07 March 2023

Focusing on one task is difficult especially when I don't see immediate results.  I now understand fire fighting and then when there are times of rest and relaxation, it feels like too much of a doing nothing time!

I can see I am a bit more patient with myself and not as harsh on me .... I am thinking literature review all done and dusted and to be honest it is so hard!  Parts that I have enjoyed are the areas I have been very curious about the level of lactoferrin in the milk, etc.  Whereas something like the functionality is almost so boring and puts me to sleep.  My supervisors emphasising that this is a training ground gives me relief and I need not be so harsh on myself - it will take time.  I realised how far I had come though the literature review is not fully complete I see I have made progress - at least 4000 plus words!

Afternoon after 2.30pm is a struggle to keep me awake and this is hen I need to go for a walk ... the either is getting cooler so no more scorch heat!

I sip, drink water, yet do my best to read as much as possible - using fingers to guide me.  

Today something very exciting happened.  I ordered hash browns and after finishing my quiche I went and asked for it.  The canteen apologized and made them for me and gave a coffee voucher.

As I waited and was speaking to my colleagues, I got 4 hash browns instead of three!  though I was full from two, one I gave away and the other one I stuffed myself and hte consequences of which I am facing ... feeling sleepy!  that's all the exciting part.

188 days since I started my PhD and 1089 to go!

Te girl who sits next to me who is doing an honours is super focused, super organised, am in awe at her study ethics!

Have I found my groove, I think so, yet I feel it is a long way to got to be patient, persistet and more importantly consistent!

Listening to Jay Shetty's Podcast On Purpose and his interview with Lewis Howes was incredible!  Not sure if the pay it forward works for me.  

I am also thinking of reviewing my commitments and what are the things to shave or cut down?