TED - The Empowerment Dynamic

 A friend suggested I read this book.  I got it from the university library.  I set the timer for 60 minutes and without any intterruptions or distractions, I started reading.  Tehre were a lot of thoughts that came to my mind.  I should be doing my PhD work, better spend the time on my PhD wiring, I should not take a break, blah blah, blah, blah.

Part one was all about Victim Orientation - how there are the perpetuators, victims, and the rescuer.

And seems liek it is in a autopilot mode.  A conscious choice would be to that of a creator.

Yesterday, I read about 52 pages with interruptive thoughts.  Today I set the timer for 30 minutes, so technically, I woudl read about 25-26 pages.  I read 28 pages.  Not bad that is a baby step progress.

SO what I really got was how and what my thoughts are doing?  Am I being a victim or a creator.  All the personal development I have done so far have pointed me to this direction.  

I have 468 days between now and 27 Feb 2026 - when the stipend stops.

Sometimes, people say you need to be clear in your vision.  And int he book Ted helped me, see one day at a time.  

It can be overwhelming to think, I have not done much and I have just over a year to complete my PhD.

So the big picture is splitting into three major circle:

1. The Experiments - what experiments to complete

2. The Thesis

3. The articles - literature review and the results for publication.

What are the baby steps I need and more so what is the mindset I need.  Is it useful or useless the thoughts or feelings I have - can I locate them on my body through sensations, or can I take a deep breath and let it go, or waht action do I need to disrupt the thought.

I woke up early at 5:15am today, did my one hour meditation, heard the birds chirping in the background, and after a shower I cooked and had chai and then the 30 minutes of reading TED.

Now that the rice is ready, I will have that and prepare to go to the office for writing.

Have an amazing day, I tell myself an d remember to be a creator .... what thoughts am I choosing consciously, choosing mindfully!  Where is the awareness taking me?